Friday, September 10, 2010

Joining the Masses

What a difference a year makes. On his first day of Kindergarten, J let me take all kinds of pictures. I have snaps outside our house, as he's getting on and off the bus, and in front of the school.

In one of my favorite pictures, he's sitting on the porch steps waiting with anticipation for the almost-empty bus that would pick him up right outside our door; this year if I want a picture of him waiting for the bus I'll have to do it at the bus stop.

On the last day of school in June, I took another picture of him sitting in the same spot on the porch. I think I just started a tradition. This is the 1st grade version:



It's also the only picture where he actually posed for me. When I asked him if I could take some in front of the school like we did last year, he said, "maybe after school." I respected his wishes. I mean, do I really need a picture of him standing in front of the school every year?

Last year I picked out his outfit. This year, he wore what he wanted to wear: "My new Toy Story shirt and shorts," he told me weeks ago. Unfortunately, the weather didn't cooperate. The shorts were replaced by long pants and the shirt covered up by a jacket.

Because I'm not quite prepared to give up being part of his entourage on days like this, I drove him again, but unlike last year, once there he didn't pay us much attention. M and I hung out in the back with ~ also unlike last year ~ the few other nosy parents and heard a little bit of Mrs. Skinner's morning pep talk. The first thing out of her mouth was that she expected good work because they were first graders now.

And just like that he joined the masses. He's no longer a cute Kindergartner with all the concessions at his fingertips. Today, the real work begins: Daily walks to the bus stop to and fro, overcrowded public transportation, long days, high expectations.

Turns out the first day of first grade was also the first day of the rest of his life.






Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Short-Timer's Syndrome

You know that feeling when you've put in your two weeks' notice at a job? It's only two more weeks but they're the longest two weeks of your life and instead of doing the best job you can so as to leave a good and lasting impression you just do crappy work? And at the end of a long unproductive day you brush it off by telling yourself, "Hey, I'm leaving anyway." Well, maybe you don't. Maybe I'm just a slacker in that sense. But if you do know what I'm talking about, then you will know exactly how I've been feeling the last couple of weeks.

School starts tomorrow and I think I'm pretty safe when I say that J is ready. I know I am. While he's been telling anyone that will listen how many "sleeps" until he goes back to school; I've secretly been counting as well.

I know that I should be making these last few days of summer as memorable as can be for him, but after almost three months of summer vacation, this last stretch has been rough and as a result we haven't been playing nice lately. I'm not real sure if it's him acting up more or me just losing my patience. I don't know what it is but I do know that it's time.

At 8:29 tomorrow morning we begin a new phase in our lives and we're both excited to see what lies ahead.

By 3:17 tomorrow afternoon, I'll be ready to give him a hug and tell him how much M and I missed him throughout the day.

Good Luck in 1st grade, Buddy!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Tee-Tee for the Memories

Yesterday when I handed M her breakfast she displayed her manners as usual. She expressed gratitude for the blessing of food on the table. And it was a stab to my heart.

Her usual Tee-Tee was replaced with something that sounded much more like Thank You. I let it go hoping it was just a fluke. It's not. The rest of the day whenever she was handed something she would respond with the same two despicable-sounding words.

Like a persistent pain that refuses to go away, the words continued flowing. "Teek-Yu." "Teek-Yu." All day long. Both J and I have tried to say, Tee-Tee to her; me in hopes that it will remind her that when you're not even two it's okay to use sounds and grunts to get your point across. Instead she mimics what we say using her new found words as if to correct US.

She's mastered the K sound and I can't even begin to tell you how sad this makes me. She called her beloved Jay-Jee, Jakey yesterday. Loud, clear, and perfect. She doesn't seem quite as comfortable with this substitution, but it's coming. I just know it.

She'll be two next month and adult-speak is slowly but surely invading her world while the baby vocabulary becomes a thing of the past.

TEE-TEE for the memories, my sweet Girl ♥